Hi Rachel,
Sorry for calling you Kristen. I saw her answering a lot of the recent posts. I really appreciate the thought experiments. I do know what I want after reflecting on the experiments. I do want to work with local people and have human connection each day. I think that is really one of my passions. I think working with my husband and volunteering will give me that and so much more. However, it would be terribly difficult to say goodbye to my partners. They are a rare bunch and I love them like family. I have a plan, which is to go out to CA to see them and see if there is any other way I can make it work; a leave no stone unturned effort to make sure I’m not overlooking anything. If after the trip I am still failing to be motivated and feeling drained despite any changes we make then the answer will be certain. Thank you for the feedback!